I'm an in-between girl. Let's just stop with idle chat and get down to what the root of what that means. By in-between girl I mean I normally sit in between the two sides of myself. I adjust based on situation. When I'm with a certain group of friends I can be the carefree girl who loves to go out and socialize, joke around, laugh a lot, do crazy things I wouldn't imagine doing, etc, etc. And then I can also be the girl who sits down with someone over coffee and talks about really heavy shit, like what's the meaning of life, or is that painting on the wall by Lora Zombie (oh wait jk, there's probably nothing by her hanging up cause she's so new and underground oooooohhhhhh). Blah blah blah.
So naturally, this is hard for me. Who the heck am I????
Do I want to be some spunky cool girl that knows what she wants and won't take crap from noboday?
Do I want to be the calm, collected girl with a good head on her shoulders?
Do I want to be the girl who people know as fun to be with, and adventerous?
I still can't decide. Once I get comfortable with myself, I question it all over again.
I love art, I love music, I love having fun, but I love being a hermit in my house and not talking to people haha.
I love talking about life, but I also like talking about cheese.
I wish I could just decide. I wish I could be really great at one thing.
I wish I knew a lot about pop culture, or a lot about theology, or maybe anthropology, or maybe art history, or....WAIT, I want to know everything.
I don't want to be mediocre any longer though. I know I can't be superwoman. ....thanks to http://rookiemag.com/archive/ ....which you should totally check out.
And that's OKAY. But I still want to be someone, and I think it's time I DO something about it instead of sitting here whining about it.
Instead of saying, "I'll paint that really cool thing I had in my head tomorrow," I'll do it today!
Instead of saying, "I'll go to the coffee shop and talk to a random person for no reason," I'll do it today!
Instead of saying, "Maybe I'll get that tattoo on my wrist I've been wanting for 3 years now," I'll go ask about it!
Instead of saying, "Maybe I'll go to London in mid-July and spend the only money I've ever made for no reason and not tell my parents," I'll do it.......jk.....maybe.....that's my latest ambition....hah....
Anyway, I just wanted to post this, as a little self reminder.
